Due to the demands of my course somehow affected a part of me, creating its own limitations and boundaries. A lot has changed of me - the way I live my everyday life and the perspectives I have now. It’s as if I became too narrowed, too isolated, and at times, emotionless. I became a robot of my own world, living a life full of routines and the oh-so-ordinary ways of living. Even the ties I had with people were already diminishing, little by little. How I miss the color and meaningful life. Being away from home saddens me, really. I miss everything about our home and the comfort my family gives to me.
Today I went to attend a mass near our dormitory, Lourdes Sur Church. I’m amazed how God has spoken through the priest to send His message to me. It’s as if during the entire homily, I was the one whom the priest is talking to. One thing that struck me most was when the priest talked about to stop being preoccupied by the what-to and what-ifs of life, stop worrying about what has not been there; instead focus on God alone, lift it all up in His kingdom. And there and then, only when we acknowledged God and His universe be the center of our lives, only then will we be able to feel how equipped and flourished our lives are. We can learn to focus on the things now, those that are at the moment and learn to live by them through the Lord’s power and guidance. God alone will provide all the things that we need, even that which we do not claim to have, He will give for as long as we live in His kingdom and we entrust all that we have in Him. Thank you Lord for giving me this message, you really will not forsake me. It is from You and the family you gave to me that I get my utmost strength and courage to face the fate of my life.
Another one was when the priest mentioned about the things we thought are important in our lives - when in fact, none of these things are. We become so attached and “into” our wants and aspirations that we fail to remember that which are most important - our relationship with Him, our God, and to other people surrounding us - our families, friends, neighbors and loved ones. Above all the money, cars, jewelries, career or any material things that we have, the value of our relationships is far greater than those possessions. This is another important message God has given me today. Above all the hectic schedules and the demands of our course, I should always learn to stop, take a while to stand by and give time to the more important aspects of my life.
Words cannot really explain how overflowing my thoughts are at the moment. I would pike to talk to a friend or even call someone close to me to share how greatful and blessed I am today. Dark shades of my life had happened these past few days of this year, a lot of struggles I have experiences and my body and mind were almost giving up as well. But I struggled to stand still, and throughout all of those battles, I held on to God, to my family and to the people who believed in me. They really never left me and stayed by my side until now. Today is indeed one of the “bests” day of my 2014. I just have to share how blessed I am with you :)